How do u know u love someone?

Nat said: when u compromised for him, when u put him into the picture when making plans for your future
John said: when everytime u re going to see her again, your heart drops; you love spending time with her doing nothing, just sitting around and brushing her hair; you love the silly little things that she does
... you'll never know 100% sure but u know if you don't try u can't live with the regret
... your feeling keeps on growing even after knowing her for a long time

...

I’m holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I’m hearing what you say
But I just can’t make you sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...
You tell me that you’re sorry
Didn’t think I’d turn around and say..

That it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late 

hey yall

haven't posted for a while.. let's see if i have updates.. life has been hectic + crazy.. lots of school works, activities, recruiting events .. all happening at the same time.. found myself stuck at school for 8- 12 hours a day.. school mates are great..
on another side, found myself breaking my mid year resolution.. getting ready to sunk right now.. wish me luck..

Something's Missing

Spent the day with tons of people.. Danced the night away at the loudest hottest scene in LA - but still don't take away the hole in the soul. Laughed the whole night through but the heart don't feel the smile. I wonder if I do have a problem - of having facade all my life while the inside don't agree. Can't even point out what's missing. As reen said it best : something's missing- but I don't know what. Maybe compassion.

Summer 2007

Summer 2007 is going to end soon.. This summer has been a different one since a while.. For a start, here's to a summer where I'm single once more after 5 years.. (damn that's long!).. A summer where I am once again free to spend time with my bestfriends ( who just so happen to all be singles..), flirt, learn to forget, be egoistic of my own happiness. A summer of whirlwind fun and outings.. A summer of learning about friendship, relationship, being a family once more.

A summer of travelling to places (bali, HK, palembang), a summer of learning bout my future, reaffirming my decisions.. A summer of unfinished business, waiting to be resolved in 2 years.. A summer where I learnt not everything I want I can get, not everything I planned will work out the way I want, not everything have to happen right now..

On another note, I suddenly remembered a dinner I had this weekend where I had said that I don't want to meet my Mr. Right right now.. I had said why would I wanna meet The One right now if I can just enjoy my time by myself and having fun with my friends.. To which my friend replied: because it felt so damn good... (to love)
To say that I'm shocked is an understatement.. haha it's like things that you would see in movie or read in novels.. maybe he's a romantic and I'm in a limbo right now :)

Just came back from funeral tonight.. My uncle's father in law... I hateeee funeralll.. no offense to the person who passed away.. I just hate looking at how sad the family members were.. I hate to see the anguish in the family's faces when they say goodbye or when they recall the person who had left them .. I'm a sentimentil person.. I'll just cry when I see this scene.. even when I don't know the person who passed away.. see this is why I hate funeral.. I think it all started back in my high school year.. my best friend's mother had passed away and she had only told me and no one else in school.. It broke my heart to see her despair but there's nothing I could really do to help ease her pain. On the other hand, I was not trained to deal with grief (of hers and of mine at seeing another person mourning). Worse still since I couldn't share with anyone else.. Til this day, I never talked about that period to my friends.. It was a short but hard period. But as always, I boxed my feelings and store it in the blackhole. If I don't talk to anyone, the problem does not exist, thus I do not need to deal with it.. so I told myself.. here's why I think I need to see a shrink.. I'm jovial in the outside but the blackholes are all scattered within me

Anyway enough of the nonsense.. here's to going back to LA in 2 weeks time!! Cheers...

congrats

wow can't believe my 'cousin' is getting married.. Not real cousin, just a family's friend whom I've been close to since Singapore (9 years ago).. OMG.. haha congrats to him... WOW.. how time flies.. before we were just doing O level and A level.. and now he's 'engaged'

congrats brother...

The things about Love

Have you ever stopped and wondered how funny love (infatuation) is??
Sometimes you meet a guy and you just don't have any sparks..
Other times, you meet a guy and you instantly feel your heart is beating as though you're doing a bungee jumping from the 40th floor..
Yet another time, you meet someone for the first time.. nothing.. second, third, fourth .. nothing.. and then one day you just suddenly feel different..
Don't you guys agree that love is funny?

What really happens when you feel that "chemistry"?? why does it work for some guys but not others... and if u happen to have that "love at first sight" feeling.. is it better than the feeling that you acquire over time? or is it worse?