Busy Bored Burnt Out

For months I've been studying GMAT ( w worse results than before ), writing essays, rewriting the, write again, re-write...

I'm officially burnt out of my dull B School applying life.. I guess you can't complain if you really want to get to the top B schools..

My #1 school is Anderson UCLA right now. Because I seem to only have hope for my almamater school and the weather in LA is too freaking cold for me right now that I can't imagine how I'll do in NY

Anyway, I've submitted my reapplication to NYU Stern last night. I have a few more essays to look at before submitting them to USC first round.

My dad just told me that my whole family in Indo are going to BALI for xmas.. BALIIIIIIIIIIIII how I miss you... Warm beach, beatiful scenery, good goood GOOODDD seafood........

why am I stuck here?
I'm tempted to just fly home

Oh wait.. lemme just check the tickets to fly home then :)

Business Application

I've decided to come out of my closet and said it out loud to the whole world :

I am applying to top 15 business schools despite my currently only 1 year working experience and a 670 GMAT

THERE...

So let's get into the details of applying...
I've submitted a re-application for UCLA Anderson about a month ago. Yes I'm crazy I know I have no working experience but last year I got waitlisted for UCLA ( MIRACLE!) with just 2 months of working experience... SO i say : WTH.. what have I got to lose ( except for time and $1000++)

Right now I'm scurrying for the USC and NYU's December 1st deadline.. I did the NYU Stern's infamous essay #3.. I must say my work was not spectacular but hopefully it will show a glimpse of my life...

Of course there's the leadership questions.. which I found to be really hard to do with my lack of working experience and my love-hate relationship (MORE hate than love ) with work..

More on this later though.. I must now start hating work again by actually working

GMAT BAD

hey that rhmes..
after months of studying
and getting high scores on my GMAT preparation test
I did badly in my actual test..

SIGH. i'm really really getting used to failure/bad results...

sad

With all the hustle and bustle of applying to grad school, I somehow find myself calmer and happier. Nothing scares me. Sure there's a high stress level associated with having to study for GMAT almost every nights, writing out numerous essays when my english is not even fantastic; but I guess the already bad year has prepared me to accept the worse and go on with life.

Previously, life was bursting with hopes, enthusiasm and ambition. A little blinded by the positive energy.


Now, still the same ambition, but reality-check gives less hopes and moderate enthusiasm.

Maybe I'm broken or more matured?

Or maybe maturing is being broken.