stuck in a size 0

I've been hearing a lot that I'm too skinny and that I need to eat more and that I'm in a verge of being anorexic..

but you see.. I still eat.. sometimes a lot.. I eat fried food as well.. I eat nasi goreng lumpia risoles (all fried indonesian food). but people don't stop saying how I'm getting skinnier everytime they see me or how I'm possibly anorexic

OK so I'm totally not anorexic.. I dont think I'm fat .. I just think I look normal. I look normal size when I see myself in the mirror. But I can't help wondering if I'm normal, why do I keep on having to try a small or Extra Small size for my clothes? Surely I can't be an XS for my 5'4 height (165cm).

I'm currently trying to evaluate if I'm having psychological eating disorder. The fact that I'm doing this analysis tells that I'm sane enough to be able to think.. and to think that I'm indeed not anorexic.. I can't help noticing though how I do limit my food intake if I eat at home.. my rice portion is a ball size with 7cm diameters.. I don't starve myself... consciously.. I wonder if subconsciously I do

My trainer told me to gain 2 more kg of muscle weight. Told me to eat more protein (read:meat). Now while I'm thinking of cutting down my intake on meat ( i pity the animals) and not quite liking the textures of meat.. OK so I still eat meat no worry...

I compared pictures of myself one year ago and now and I'm losing weight.. could have been the 4 hrs a week gymn that I've been doing..

nah.. wat do I know.. I think I'm fine

Sooo...

I talked bout my internship experience in my MBA experience blog so it was good and interesting.. but for today I don't have much to do and decide to update my blog..

I just realized I never make a new year resolution this year.. so I will start with a mid-year resolution :
1. be more hardworking ( in terms of school works). I remembered last time in my undergard I never buy textbooks unless the teachers strictly require it and while others are busy gulping the chapters, I was busy trying to find copies of the lecture notes
2. go to France or New York or Hawaii.. darnn I should really really go to France this year.. been in my to-do-list for yearss
3. Spoil Paris more .. and train him even more to be a good doggie ( teach him more tricks)
4. Learn Chinese language.. should watch more chinese soap operas
5. Learn to improve people's skills - be more humble, listen to people more, try to talk to strangers more
6. Exercise and gain some muscles - yoga/ pilates
7. Cook more - shouldn't go out n spend $$$ on food too often
8. Get to know more Indon friends or friends in general in LA
9. Be cleaner at home ( most prob end up hiring a maid more often)
10. Decide my spirituality ( pick one for god's sake.. )
11. Practice guitar more often
12. To free myself from infatuation/heart break/whatever romantic
13. To care about personal appearances more ( thank god I have Nut my personal shopper/upcoming fashion designer bestfriend)

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
(1 Corinthians 13)